Many of you may not know, and may find it hard to believe, but I was in the band. It's true. I'd run up to the band box after cheerleading and play my little clarinet. And I wasn't half bad at it. Music was something that I was told I wouldn't be good at, so I really went for it. I loved band. I loved that I was challenged and that the more I worked at it the better I became. And I loved Mr. Clay and he loved me.
Mr. Clay passed away on Dec.4th and my heart misses him deeply.
As a teen I felt like I was only good at a few things; horseback ridding, flirting and cheerleading. Because of my bad knee, and the closing down of my stables, (not to mention having my horse sold out from under me...) that left flirting and cheerleading. I didn't have many people in my life really pushing me to strive for much more then that... a peppy flirty cheerleader. I actually had a "guidance counselor" Mr.K., tell me that I need not worry about college, and I should just concern myself with getting out of high school. Yeah... really. I was not only hurt by him, but also at home. They agreed.
I did well in band my freshman year. I memorized the songs, chitchatted with friends, flirted with the sax and the trumpet players... all the stuff a cute cheerleader in band does. Our band teacher didn't require much. It was fun. Easy. I did well, and I wasn't even trying! OH! I remember telling Mr. S. that we needed more practice and he's let us go in the practice rooms and we'd just goof off. Some kids would just leave class! I'd never leave! I just flirted.
Then along came Omar Clay. He was one tough cat. I remember he asked us to play and somehow he knew most of us had the music memorized! MAN! I remember it felt like WEEKS before he finally let us play our instruments! We clapped out rhythms and had written tests! Written test in band! I was about to quit! One morning I ran up to the band box early and told him that I couldn't read music and told him how I couldn't learn and that I was thinking about quitting. I explained to him that no one in my family played music, and that Mr. K didn't think band would be a good fit for me, and my grandmother agreed. He stared at me. I nearly cried. Actually, I did cry. He stared. At the time I wasn't sure why I cried... looking back, I know why.
I'm going to take a second...
It's hard to look back at these times in my life. It makes me cry for myself. It still hurts.
Back to Mr. Clay.
I didn't know what to make of his staring at me... I wasn't sure what he was thinking. He asked if I liked the clarinet and told me I could be really good if I stuck out the tough stuff. No fluff. He handed me a tissue and told me to go get my reed ready.
WOW! I really didn't know what to make of him. But, sure enough when we did finally get to play I was way better! I was thrilled that I could read music and was good at it! I thought he was the coolest!
We did have our up and downs thru the years. He did make me cry. He pushed me. He wouldn't let me skate by. Not even with flashing him a big grin, and batting big puppy dog eyes at him. If I didn't come to class and meet his high standards he let me know. And if I did do well... well, he pushed harder.
It was in the continual pushing that I felt his love.
At first I didn't know how to deal with the disapproving looks... by senior year I'd come to love them. Holly and I would mess with him and each play every other measure. We'd have fun! He pretended to be annoyed with us, but he loved it!
I'd completely annoy him by wearing lipstick and getting my reeds all nasty.
He never liked that I cheered at the football games and didn't play with the band. Some games he had me hopping back and forth between cheerleading and playing in the band.
He also had a problem when he saw my grandma at a football game to watch me cheer, but he hadn't seen her at a band concert yet. After me telling her about him asking about her she attended one of my concerts and was super proud of me. She also met Mr. Clay and was completely taken with him. He was a very handsome guy and charming too!
She never missed a concert after that! And she wanted me to bring my clarinet to every family function and play for everyone. I loved it.
If you are still reading this... WOW! You must love me!
It's time to get the kids... I feel a bit better having gotten some of this out.
Mr. Clay is someone that impacted my life in a way I will never forget...
My pretty little clarinet Clementine.